Thirsty Eyes

I made a decision just now

2009-10-09T12:36:00.000-07:00

I made an important decision just now--at least one blog every week. The reason is that, I am probably leaving Ireland for China. I am sure my English will be getting worse and worse when I am back to the non-English environment. Actually I am living in a Non-English life in this small room now. Writing is a good practice to remind me English vacobulary, phrases, garmma and some non-formal words used in Western style life. Describing Chinese life in English will be fun, it is a conflict of two different cultures. My opinion and value has changed in the past four years. I dont think it will has a bad affect in my life in China. Other believes, values and opinions widen my mind. I leatned to understand the world in different ways.

忧郁症

2008-05-05T06:54:00.001-07:00

在网上做了一个，我好象有严重忧郁症了，该怎么办？

I want to be a 工程师

2008-05-01T17:23:00.000-07:00

25岁，还是不是放弃理想，甘愿沉沦的年龄，，吧。。
别做让自己后悔的事情。
年轻，只有一次。
当身体老化，不听大脑使唤的时候，那就真是无可奈何了。
意志，也是建立在物理条件之上的。

想找一个自己跟自己说话的地方

2008-04-27T16:12:00.000-07:00

最近很想家，突然很想很想把自己嫁掉。或者说，不一定要结婚，但是想要一个可以一起走下去的人在我身边。一个能照顾我的人，一个心胸够宽广的人，一个有能力的人，一个象大哥哥的人。
帆是一个需要被人照顾的人，我依靠不住，不管是生活上还是精神上。他不愿意为了我去郑州，更要跟我立婚前财产证明，也就是说，如果我跟他去一个陌生的城市，万一分开的话，我就要打包出门了。这是他保护自己的方式，却没有想过如何对一个女人负责。无语了，我不得不承认一个事实，他不爱我。或许，他根本不懂什么是爱，怎么去爱。
从来没有这么想过家。
妈妈又该操心了，不跟她说。
赶紧找工作是头等大事，挣钱挣经验，然后回家。理想的状态是，在30岁之前，能够在郑州给自己付个小房子的首期。还是自己住比较舒服。
是读PHD还是工作呢？如果读了PHD不知道回郑州能不能找到理想的公司。如果工作的话，回郑州以后，不知道还有没有可能进学校工作。真烦。看能找到什么再说吧。今年又赶上爱尔兰经济萧条，没脾气了。希望应了那句话，绝处逢生吧。

Good luck

2007-09-18T12:16:00.000-07:00

I have an appointment with the lab manager tomorrow morning. He is the one who decide how much money I can earn for the coming year. Oh....nervious. I must earn money as much as possible. The content of the coming appointment is to determine if my competency match their needs. So far, I have no idear what questions he will ask me...

1. Do you have any tutoral experience?

I used to tutor a high school student with English when I was in college. The girl is my teacher's daugcter, I gave lessons onece a week. I found teaching is interesting.

The tutor in UCC is totally different from China. In my college, tutor works as the assistance of the lectures. When I was in the MSC Multimedia technology class, our tutors worked in the lab, they helped us with assignment. I found they are bery helpful. They managed to help everyone during the limited time. Hence the time management is very important.

2. what your advantage?

I am confident with my techniques background. I just finished the MSC multimeia course in UCC, and have an honers Bacherlar's degree in Computer science and technology. Basically, the courses involed in the degree programme are listed in CV.

During the MSC multimedia course, we learnt about web technoologies and Java. Web technologies include some basic internet knowlege, several web programming languages and database. For Java, basically, we use J2se to do some 2d and 3d animation. My project is an interactive tool for mathmatical graphics in both 2d and 3d environment. it aims to be used in analytic geometry teaching. My supervior introduced me to the maths apartment, and I am developing an website for them. This website is developed in PHP and MYSQL and invlved several applets which are similar with my project and demonstrate some typical analytical geometry issue.

Blogger, I will not lost you again, I promise.

2007-09-05T11:04:00.000-07:00

Hello, I am your lord. Sorry dear blogger, I havent seen you for months. Miss you so much. Nice to see you again. en ma!

A whole new term is about begin. For this year, I am going to be a researcher. This will be my second Master's. How academic am I! (Kind of shame on myself) These days, I am looking for a topic for the one year's research. It is about the Internet Banking. I have no idear how dose it releated to the Information System issue. After all, I am working for the department of Information System in this college. They pay me to work for them. I suppose to do something for them, or something releative to them. My boss told me I should decide what/which aspect/issue has not received attention in previous research or what challenges/problems banks are currently facing. I have never ever worked in a bank, how could I know about that?! I dont think I can address those problems only by reading papers.

My visa is valid until the middle of Sept, I cant register until my boss pay the fees for me, and the registration is at the end of Sept. What can I do now??

2am

2007-06-08T18:23:00.000-07:00

I am just back from work at 2:30 am. Actually, Bar finished at 1:50, fucken 30mins wasted on waiting for taxi. This kind of Taxi called Cab. No cab in China. No need at all. You can see a lot of taxi in 10mins at 3am in my city.
I have a part time work in a night club, and been working here for almost two years. Still, I can not understand what my manager say, and what the other girls talk about. I can read, write in English, but I really have no idear how to improve my listening and spoken English. while waiting for taxi, I called to my dearest Xiaojing, kind of strange distance was felt between us, in hearts. Love can not stand in long distance, so dose friendship? I dont belive that. Tou and Cui are still my closest friends, even though we have been in different countries for years.
Amy will be back from London tomorrow. Hope she had a good trip.London is my dream as well, but I would like to visit this dream city when I am in a better situation. It is supposed a perfect trip, isnt it?

See you again, my thirsty eyes

2007-06-08T02:30:00.000-07:00

Dear, I almost lost you, thanks for google. I got up about 9am (be specific, it was 20mins past 9am) this morning. It is a brilliant record for me in past three month. Now, I am typing on my bed to celebrate that. I love the look of Blogger. I would like to dig out what anything else I can do for decorating.

By the way, finally I sent the fax to Mum, it cost me 5 Euro that equals to 50 RMB, with which I could send a golden fax in China . The application form for PhD was submitted also yesterday. Two huge tasks finished finally. What is next? Post on my lovely friends.

A will

2007-05-20T17:43:00.000-07:00

Some people keep saying, there is a will, where is a way. I have lots of wills, thus I feel confused on chossing a way.
My fucken life should be ended, I decide to be a good girl just like other girls of 20's. To have a health , regular life, work hard and smile to myself every day. God must have said:"It was good."
I am going to take a SCJP in this summer. I must pass it. It will be an passport for my career, or a wonderful ending of my computer study, Aha...!
To achive that, I had better go to bed early.

A new blogger

2007-05-20T17:28:00.000-07:00

I have a blog in msn space for more than two years. That is not belong to me anymore, I write for others, the purpose of recording is to tell friends hows my life. So I decide open any blog for myself. Congratulation!